Hi. I’m Rob Holmes.
Have you ever wondered where your next meal was coming from? Or where you’ll be sleeping next month? If you haven’t, you may not be a member of the contingent who can understand this blog. If you can’t relate, please do us both a favor and tune out now. If you are still here, and can think as deeply as required, let me fill you in on why I believe what I do.
I was born in South Jersey in 1970 and my mother committed suicide right after my eleventh birthday. I spent more than two decades trying to make sense of it until my father does the same. I guess to follow her down. I don’t know. But all I know is that, back in 2004, I was a man in his early thirties with major issues. Again, no pity. Just journey.
In order to understand me, let’s go backward two decades. Even though I was not raised in a religious home, I always knew there was a force from beyond that was drawing me in. This led me to research my options. Even though the Old Testament seemed a bit too violent and rule-ridden, I felt the New Testament, or at least the Red Letters (the words of Jesus) made sense to me. In high school, I read Hawking’s “A Brief History of Time”. During this period, I also got involved in church and found Jesus. Since then, I’ve read Hawking’s updates and closely follow Michio Kaku’s findings. I soon found myself combining the discipline of quantum mechanics and the Big Bang with the existence of God, then wound up in the worlds of Albert Einstein, John Calvin and Isaac Newton. Down the rabbit hole I went. The concept of non-linear time and predestination had my attention. Nothing else makes sense. Time happened. Shakespeare said that all the worlds a stage and we each must play our part. Shakespeare… Calvin… Einstein… Hawking… Kaku… I agree with the common denominator. Time is not linear.
This brings me to explaining the title of the blog to to you. The phrase “Living By Accident” and subtitle “Sometimes Risk is the Reward” refer to the feeling of helplessness when acting out our places in the Universe. Some folks want to believe they are masters of their own destinies. Things are not that simple. If time is not linear, which many quantum theorists believe, everything has already happened. This brings me to the belief that everything has already happened. This brings me to focus on the subtitle that “Sometimes Risk is the Reward.” I believe that it is the journey itself, and belief in the process, is the real reward.
You must understand, however, that believing in the concept of ‘Living by Accident’ is not to live life without deliberate purpose. It is merely to acknowledge that the blueprint has already been laid out prior to our involvement and our purpose is to fulfill the role(s) set out for us. Again, a devout atheist may tell you the idea is crazy. However, quantum mechanics will bring a reasonable person back to the reality that time is not linear and, likely, already predetermined. This brings me to the reality that human beings are in this existence to live their lives to the fullest to a predetermined end.
Life is amazing. Nothing is random. Deal with it. Live it. Love it.